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sexta-feira, 28 de setembro de 2012

Dreaming or Living

I would like to start by paraphrasing a song “Dance, you're not killing yourself! You're only triggering your senses”. Then I spent eleven years of my life doing it and also believing that it would be my future. Dance! I just don’t know whether I let it slip through my fingers or just gave up, but at some point I stopped doing it. It all started when I was eleven and it came to an end when I was twenty-two. What I used to dance? Polish folklore, but before that, it was also Ukrainian, Italian, Portuguese and Spanish. In 2001 I became part of an ensemble of only Polish folklore and I thought I was just in heaven.
I thought I could become professional, and travel around the world as a dancer. I never wanted to be famous, I just wanted to dance and I still do. Someday, somehow, someway, I lost it. Maybe I didn’t put enough effort into achieve it and writing this makes my heart  beat so fast and causes my eyes to water. But I’ll stand still and keep those days in my mind, a good place that I can visit to have warm memories and forget about time.
“When I dance I feel free” and then another song gets in my head, because once you’re on the stage you’ll never want to get out. But I did it and never looked back. “Once I am moving, I’m alright”, yes, I just need a song. I’m not a dancer anymore but I still know the moves… what I wouldn’t do to get those days back, I know I can’t but I’ll never lose the spirit that keeps me alive. Oh, how I miss those days! Well, I guess I just need to keep on moving to any rhythm and any song. I just need to keep on moving. I am dance, dance is me. I need music to set me free. Music and dance are my essence, my soul. I know it sounds lame, but it’s true.
Of course I’ll end it by paraphrasing another song, because I’ll never stop: “I wanna dance like it was the last dance of my life”. Would you join me?