Kill myself

I tried to kill myself, and I did.
After doing that, I just needed to face the consequences.
I once felt I was worthless, and I was sure of it.
So I became a shadow of my own self.

Party, fun, people, excess - I took it all.
Now it became my cross and I have to bear
Wherever I go
Whenever I talk
Whoever I meet

I carry, I care, I cry.